Wondering

one day I was thinking something

which is possible for everybody

DEATH

but I was thinking

DEATH when I was still this ages

I mean when I was still a teenager

what will I do when I know that I can't live long?

should I commit suicide since I'm suffering myself?

should I suffer myself until the God put a full-stop at my life?

or

should I leave my relatives and friends since that 

I'm troublesome for them?

what should I do?

imagine you are in this situation, what will you do?

I'm wondering what will happen next 

my result always at the bottom line

because of the laziness of myself

and now I'm starting to work hard

will something unexpectedly will happen?

there's a lot of mystery 

maybe something that is fate

but you will still have a chance to change the fate

I believe that

Do you?