RAIN

realize..

whn u feel sad

or moody

u only will cum n write blog

cuz u feel empty

n thr is nobody beside u

cuz feeling lonely

tatz why

u wanna write out how the feeling right nw

but

tat is sumthing canot write at blog

cuz

...........

nvm

life...

DDT+SHIN CHAN now

sumtimes gt badminton

but i prefer badminton evryday

but nobody cn teman

n now my leg start getting wel but hvnt well

just wanna ply n fal madly

now..

wan shin chan?

or ddt?

*it's raining now

feeling cold..

=)



hahahahahahahahahahahahaa

hahhahahahahaha

hahahaaaahahahahhahahaha

hahhahahaahhahhahahaa

hahaahahh

hahahahahahaha

hahahahahahahahahaaa

hahaahhahahahahaha

hahahahahhahahahahahahahaa

hahahahahahahahahahahaha

hahaha

hahahahahah

hahahahahahahhahahahahhahah

hahahahahahahhah

hahahahahahhahahahah

hahahaha

happy la huh?

evrything is just gone..

im nt lik u all..

nobody knw wat am i thkin..

nobody knws wat i get n lost b4

plz

but

anyway

thx

=)

*he's the reason of my teardrops on my guitar...

HAIZ

=3=

k

not very like wat happen today

but i just enjoy the time whn im together with my friends

feel lik gt distance in btw u n me..

lol..

i hate it

jasper

cn u dun lik tat alr??

seriously..

i really hate it

please..

i just wan to be normal

just wanna it to happen naturally..

please...

in front of you all feel nothing

doesnt mean im really nth..

leg..

whn u can fully get well??

i really wan to ply badminton until mad

pk aso dun mind..

just tat i wan to sweat alots

make myself feel more clear n awake..

feel like my stomach gt problem

duno la..

feel hungry

eat the 1st bite..

feel lik full..

n wanna vomit..

n finish..

feel finally finish it..

but im still hungry

hush

wat happen to me??

mum tot tat im kip fitting

lol

i dint

but seriously im thin jor..

cuz i dint eat so much lik last time..

but i dun lik tat kind of feeling whn i need sum food..

love the way i live now..

cuz is freedom

like to be strong which dun nid any1's help

even my mum

sis

n even my beloved frens...

=)

like to be with you

but im nt dare

cuz scare of wat happen last time

just wanna be silent

can evrybody support?

n try to kip quiet?

*sob.......

问题

我爱的人，请你回答我六个问题.

1.有没有那么一瞬间，你上MSN/FACEBOOK是为了找我，让我陪你聊天？

2.有没有那么一种感动，当你看到手机上有我发的短信的时，嘴角会有一丝满意的微笑？...

3.如果有一天我不再和你联系，你会主动跟我联系吗？

4.有没有那么一种特别的爱在那种特别的瞬间存在？

5.如果有一天，我彻底的在你的世界里消失，你会不会想起有我的存在？

6.有没有那么一秒钟，你真的想保护我一辈子？

如果有的话，请告诉我，好吗?

 

 

 

 

 

 

给他

 
 
 
 
 
我的答案：
 
1. 有，很多次都是。

2. 有，每次都是。

3. 我会，一定。

4. 有，对我来说，你是特别的。

5. 有，就算你是男的，我也会守护着你，甚至生命。

谁要回答我？

*QUESTIONS COPY FROM JAICE'S BLOG



4.19PM

.......

i duno..

feel a little bit down

think too much jor...

arhhhh

lol..

leg  arh leg..

when u can get well d ??

i wan go badminton d lae..

yerr...

i vr sienz lo...

again did a succesful mui yan

ke lian..

now leave jin 1 ppl alr..

hahahahahaha

i gambateh la..

XD

2day woke at 4.19pm

i shock lo..

i woke is becuz of  my senior sms me...

n i actually wanna plan not to luk at it..

cuz is alr 4th msg it disturb my dream

*n i alr forget abt the dream jor..

n i feel lik duno wat time jor

i just luk at my hp after read tat msg..

my eyes was blur..

n i tough is 11am..

n i luk at it clearly with open my eyes bigger..

4.19pm!!!

i was lik..

jump up from the bed!!!

*but actually i still feel tired

i thk is bcuz of leg??

duno lae..

maybe gua..

hahax...

just now read juan's blog..

feel so..

sad + touch..

c the true frenship ..

i tot she alr goin to 4get abt it..

but..

T.T

now we nt really close as last time..

but i will forever rmb

wat last time we did...

the enjoyable days tat we had

the fun

the fight

n the smile..

wat we had b4 is hard to get bck

cuz now is a different age world..

haha

nvm

we gt ddt..

XD

*UNTOUCHABLE....

=3=

2day kip on do this face

=3=

alr said kip quiet alr la!!

n u all do until so obvious!!!

yerrr

i just wan like normal only lae..

hush!!!

alr said dunwan ur all's help

michel also cn feel lae!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yerr

beh song 1 lo..

i dun nid help lae!!!

i dunwan like last time jac did..

it spoil the frenship + evrything!!

JALA!!!

did u und??!!!

i help lui n ali is cuz

the other site say lik u

n u didnt reject!

tatz y i helped!

but tis time nope k!

hush!!

alr said dun tell

u all dint tel!!

but u do until so obvious aso same la!!

yerr

suan liao..

=3=

beh song..

next time dunwan call u all ply alr

hush!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

any way

2day was fun seriously...

X-)

*officially missing ....

but FUN

lol...

i just gt few pics...

yee an 1 all delete jor after upload..

hahahahaha

i dun lik ffk ppl

XD

badminton with prim fren

vr little..

including me just 5 bah

others alr go bck..

but they just came for badminton

we came for discuss abt picnic +chit chat

but chit chat gt 90%

ahahaha

jack wong say today i ply until vr..

'fierce'??

he said tat yesterday i not seriously wor..

XD

no la

should say ply with JALA cnt serious aso

n

so za..

how serious wor

XD

yee an like 11am oni cum..

cum with ipad n hp..

jiak sai

duno cum for wat d

i ask him 10am cum

n he say i tot u mean 10.30am ++

jin gak dao ta..

n whn i just started to ply..

until 10.30am

i dint warm up

i just ply..

thn i just jump high wan to catch the ball

but the end

i dint get it

whn the time i reach the floor

my leg unbalance

n my leg just

sprain

haha

wei teach me tis word d..

n i just

i just rest for while..

like 5 minutes..

begining

not really

is just numb

i duno la

n i say i 'lat gao'

cuz i feel my feet vr loose

XD

my leg abit unbalance

thn the feet thn sengek jor..

after 5 minuts

i dint care abt it

cuz alr feel nth

ply with careful lo...

careful until kip on fall down..

skin aso cum out jor..

wei aso kip on fall down aso say me kip on pk

yerr

=3=

suan liao lo..

special

XD

thn go mcd lo..

dunwanna say abt yee an alr

buy for himself oni

but lae..

we gud..

dun mind..

talk talk talk..

n i kip on let yee an zat

n say aby chonghwa how gud la..

make 4 of us aso wan chg

but just bcuz nid to go bck form 2 or form 1

sob

actually i just lik their koko oni

other is just same for me..

but better cuz is chinese

ahahahahaha

n i realize i had bored with mcd

1st time i eat burger half oni thn say im full

i gv whole pack of french fried to fat yee an

lol

nvm

french fries not gud

eat die him

ahahahahahahahahahahhaa

lol

duno lae

started to miss smk tmn selayang's life

miss the 3 month tat i been at thr b4 ..

freedom

enjoyable..

with my beloved juan..

whn they talk abt them

feel lik juan oni 1 girl thr

feel like sry to her tat i leave her..

T.T

u forever my best friend..

although we now not tat gud as last time..

but u alw be in my heart d

who call u r my 1st best friend wor

=) 

banana soldier...pro in DDT

yee an kip on curi take pic of me..

thn i curi take pic of him

but deleted jor

save leng leng the wei wei oni

ahahahahahahahahaaaa

walk to bus shop

started feel my leg sumthing wrong..

they stop at warta lama

n i continue my 'journey'

whn i reach

i stand up..

.....

feel sumthing

go down stairs more worst..

nvm..

stil can tahan n walk lik normal..

6pm...

started to feel my feet bengkak

actually not so much..

but cn c the different in between the other leg...

n getting worst jor..

n whn ddt kip shake chair..

kena table

n i forget i injured

 i just sit on my leg!!!

shit!!!

i shout

but mum dint choi me

cuz

whn last time i ply ddt

whn i lose i aso shout d

ahahahahahahahahahaaa

starting to ask help from others

ask my cousin tat alw badminton d..

he said he sprain many times

but he just leave it

i let him boom

thn ask my biao sao which is chinese d doctor..

XD

but she hvnt reply..

thn i go fb ask for help lo..

thn ask wei

he say go c doctor wor

cai ni dou sha

i dun lik so c doctor lae..

duno why

thn he ask use tie da jiu zut sendiri

BUT I DUN HAVE!!

n wei wrote in my status..

walao a..

lum sei ngo alr..

T.T

my JALA aso dint say lik tat b4 to me lae..

ahhhhh....

*kip quiet if u see this..

n i wait until mum go out..

sendiri go down buy

dint tell my mum..

n lucky have..

n i zut n zut n zut lo..

no feel d..

but gt better

but my leg vr oily oni

ahahahahahahahaaaa

n suddenly my biao sao called

n she ask me go her clinic 2mr

n i saw shawn write at my status..

say tat use needle poke in..

........................

duno 2mr izit i goin to do lik tat??

biao sao said will 1 or 2 days get well..

yeah yeah

cn badminton jor

ahahahahahahahahahaaa

i thk la..

dun care la

<3

this my leg..

but it took at 10pm sumthing..

but now actually is bigger alot thn tis..

n i kip on zut with watch touching story..

《人狗奇缘》

nice lae seriously..

the dog is lik street dog..

n..

n make me teardrops none stop..

stop n again

stop n again...

more touching thn last time i posted 1..

T.T

duno 2mr how..

bless me..

=)

*BANANA~~<3

CENTER

sucks

im bored becuming a center ppl

1st is mum n sis

2nd is MUM n DAD!!!

hush!!

ya rite

u both contact is bcuz of we all

i mean ur child

tatz me n sis!

but both of u make me feel like

DUN WANNA CONTACT WITH BOTH OF YOU!!!

actually i really duno

how u both can be together and born us out!!!

u both r my parents..

but u make me feel like

I DUNWAN U BOTH TO BE MY PARENTS!!

im bored to becum the center..

ya rite

im nice to bully

but i aso have limit k!!!

i always smile doesnt mean tat

i can let u all scold with no reason

helping u all pass msg!!!!!!!!!!!

u really make me feel like wan to leave this home

SRY TAT IM USING UR MONEY!!

N SRY TAT IM STAYING AT UR HOUSE!!!

N I WILLING TO LEAVE ASO!!!

y cant i have a peaceful life..

simple n enjoyable..

i just wan tat

dun nid rich

just simple with smile

* SRY TAT I HURT U..SRY TAT I.....

hp ring...tomorrow badminton with my beloved fren

Catch it while you still HAVE it

just watched this..

《狗狗与我的十个约定》

n this is last few weeks i watched

HACHIKO-A DOG STORY

k

both of it is touching

exspecially the 1st 1..

i thk bcuz of i watchin the 1st 1 alone

tatz y i just let myself cry lik hell

cuz the 2nd 1 i watched while

my sis at my side watching TV + study

maybe

bcuz im more sensitive to dog

maybe more than love to a human being

tatz y i reli cry

the 1st movie gt say

when u start feel like want to have a dog

it mean tat u start to be lonely

and u wan somebody tat can together with u

while u r lonely

but

once u had ur life..

u have ur work

have ur dear

u will feel like they are just a heavy bag

k...

i have nth to said with it..

cuz

i havent experience it

havent feel it..

cuz havin a dog is just my dream

not a real life..

duno

whn i can dream cum true?

hahax...

2.46am

shit..

2mr stil have badminton

n today u alr not enough slp..

AMELIA KHOR!!

today whn u cut hair

the guy had say tat

UR EYES IS MORE BENGKAK THN HIM!!

lol

n u wan 2mr who said ur eyes bengkak arh???

=.=

when the time it is goin to be lost

u start to want it back

sumtimes its too late..

love the things tat u having now

ddont regret until the day u r getting lost from it..

* i don't know i love which one..

Protection

omg..

wat the

hush..

actually i dunwan to tell any body

just wanna kip in my heart

but

as gud for other girls

i nid to write out as a warning for u all

just now i went down to 3rd floor..

for buying sum junk food..
*leaving in condo..

tat time was evening

its vr normal..

 i just walk slow..

after buy it..

i still walkin slow..

with eat junk food..

n i dint care abt others ppl...

waitin for lift is alone..

but whn the lift reach..

thr was like 4 ppl thr..

n all go out b4 i went out from tat lift..

but accept 1

he is tall..

but i dun rmb his face

cuz im lookin at the floor with eatin junk food

n b4 i reach..

he suddenly ask me

the thing i eatin can eat or not 1??

thn i though nth

i just gv him the whole pack...

n i started feel scare..

n whn i reach..

he gv bck me n said thx..

i take bck..

he almost wanna touch my shoulder..

but i just leave it..

i went out..

n b4 i turn to the way to my house..

i look bck..

he stand out side the lift..

n lookin at me..

omg..

wat he gonna do ..

i turn to the other side which gt wall thr..

n i waitin at thr cz it can cover me..

n i wait for few second..i tot he went..

but

suddenly

i saw a shadow comin...

i was like

SHIT!!!!!!!!

i fastter walk forward abit...

n he ask me to go bck

i duno wat to do..

cuz i dunwanna let him knw which 1 is my house..

i scare..

sumthing will happen if..

HUSH!!!

dun thk dun thk!!!!

n he show a hand sign..

ASK ME TO CALL HIM!!!!!!

i wave my hand as IM NOT INTRESTED AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!

i fastter open the door..

by kip on lookin to the bck..

hopefully we went

my hand was struggling..

wat the...

i fastter open the door n close it..

i went inside alr..

n my heart still pump vr fast..

oh my god..

actually wat he wanna do to me..

cuz i dun thk tat man is malaysian..

HUSH!!!

feel lik wana leaving this house lo..

cuz after 2mr ..

i have 2 days nid to stay at home ALONE!!!!!

how..

T.T

mama...

i seriously nid sum personal protection..

i want to learn karate..

half of the reason is bcuz of this..

but aso as my dream nia..

or having a dog aso not bad..

can protect me ma..

=)

i thk my mum cuming bck jor..

now is 3.37am

hahahahahaax

NITEX~

NOOB

addicted with online game

addicted to badminton

huh...

when can i addicted to.............

suan

dunwan tell better

wan to chg hair style lo...

cuz m'sia is hot..

n boy cut is more suitable for me

not i say

mum said it..

so i believe it

long hair..

nvm la

gt fake hair d ma..

hahax

aso duno whn can i get a job

seriously

im bored now

huh.....

*Dear..i miss you

Feelings

just suddenly feel like wan to lean on somebody shoulder

or chest

had bored with pillow n bed

feel like wan to feel the warm from my beloved 1

haha

but i havent get it

=)

nvm la

JALA

u ganti 1st la

although everytime whn i lean on u all

exspecially lui

is a hot weather

but

nvm la

hahahahahahahhahahahaaa

2mr is performing

n i dun relli believe tat i can do it

i mean the drum solo

cuz we dint reli practice it properly

so

reli sry to wei qing n band too

exspecially to percussionist

sry tat u all have a lazy leader

by the way

i dun reli knw the reason that why we should perform

but

as a performer

have a chance to perform

we should hold it properly

not give up

so

bless me tomorrow

percussionist

the reason im getting lazier

canot say all is ur mistake

i knw i aso gt wrong

but

half of the reason is becuz of u all

we from the best section drop to the worst section

dont u all feel it?

i knw our standard is not tat high like others scol

bcuz my standarrd is not tat high too

but

weshould learn for the basic

i knw u all are boring for all the basic thing

but u think back of it

do u feel u all reli did it well?

even myself i aso not feel tat im tat gud

if our standard low

we can make it high

but

without teamwork

we cant do it

wat i nid now

is attendace

2nd is friendship in btw evry member

...............

alots of things i reli feel like wan to tel u al..

but

haiz..

i think i will find sumtimes to talk to u all..

so...

lets have a gathering for percussionist??

i'm officially missing you......*Tamia

Tired but FUN

eyes bag is getting bigger

skin is getting worst

pimples kip cuming out

cuz i alw slp late

n i wake up early

1st is for scol

bt sumtimes is for badminton

nw cn no nid go scol jor

but i wan badminton

i just willing to be tired

cuz

its show some shine in my life

at least im busy

better than doing nothing and get nothing

im really enjoying my life now

with my friends

games

mum had losen her hand

give me sum freedom

its make my life happier

breath some air from others place

its wonderingful

enjoying my life chasing the bus

i think

im statisfice for my life

i dun nid too much

but now

i need money seriously

sry to louisa

sis too...

trying my best to get a job

wish me

now my level of sudoku is very hard

i can luk at it 1hour

and i cnt find anything

it is a best thing

to make u feel slpy

love?

long time never write this word

had long time never think of this word

my heart is empty now

everything just let it go naturally

maybe will admire or like sumbody

but

dun think too much

cuz wat i nid n have now

it just simple n happy

so i hope i cn continue this kind of life

life sure will be more complicated abit whn u had grow

its just depends on how u think of it

i still need sumthing when im lonely

whn can i have a dog or sumthing else?

2.33am

actually not really late

yesterday was 3.30am

but seriously

im tired

eyes is getting smaller

goin to be end of the day

for u consider is begining of the day bcuz is over 12am

but

everybody's mind is different

so if u can understand thn ok

if cant

read again if u wan

close it

or minimise it

cuz i love the songs that i put at my bloggie..

listen to it

3songs...

you leave me breathless....*shayne ward

I saw BITCHES in my life..S*CK

the world had change whn u grow

once u from child becum adult

ur mind

ur heart

ur atitue

evrything SURE will chg

yea

u dun realize it

bt whn the time u started to hate ppl

n started to scold ppl

n started to act like u r the correct 1

n started to be like a leader but u r actually not

.............

the more u started it

the more bitchy u r

no one wan to start a fight

n i wont hate u bcuz i dunwan to waste my time

for a bitch

i wont like u

bcuz no reason for me to continue the friendship

being with same race is not rcuz we r racist

we cn b fren with other race

bt not the bitch human being

although we r racist

tat is non of ur buisness

join or not join the activities

tat is our choices

ok

maybe u r being so lonely

tats why u want to start something to make ur life 'shine'

sry

u finding wrong ppl

Better Man?

found a better man

no

should i say many man is better thn him

much much more

i think is because of we are living the different world

that's why we really hard to get together

the way he played

the way he speaked

the way he treated me

.........

haiz

why am i so easy to get in this kind of problem?

im just making myself

get more troble in my life

who can teach me how to get lost from this?

not to think too much?

yes

im trying to..

but sometimes is really hard not to think about it

i think i wont think abt it when i met the BEST man of my life

not the better man..

but

who is my BEST man?

who will be that?

=)

TEE-HEE~~

im overnite at samantha's sun house

no la

should say sun's house

if not stefanie will jlus..

XD

today go interview at carefour

the PETSMORE shop

haha

duno why

im so happy whn they are needling part time

n whn the time they sms to interview on this thursday

im damn damn damn freaking happy!!!!!!!!!

buahahahahahahahahaaaaaa

i dint ask others shop

cuz i dunwan work at others shop

hahahahahahahahahaaaaaa

i thk is bcuz of the animal bah

nt bcuz of the salary

cuz i dint even ask hw much per hour

so

hopefully is not tat low

i just hope i will collect more money soon

n buy a doggie as my 'partner' of my life..

=.=

i reli slpy jor...

bt im still gossiping nw..XD

anything..

NITES!

The Wishes

yesterday went to lui's house with

my dearest JALA

she has 2 dogs

is naughty

but i like it..

they call

Winter

n' another 1 call

Susie

haha

we watched after shock

i watch third times alr

tat time i really felt lik wan to slp

half of the reason is because of my cons

its dry cuz i never slept propely last night

but aso becuz of cons

i cant slp

cuz it will went into my eyes

so wat i do is

ply with her dogs..

i love dogs..

no i should say i love animal

but accept insects

having a dogs in my dream since i was young

since i knw what is dogs

last time i dun knw having a dogs

needs money

needs time

needs energy

but i knw evrything

but just duno the ecperience of it

love the feeling of dogs licking me

love the feeling of touching dog's fur

i thk the day i went to lui's house

the thing i most like

is the time im with their dogs

=)

many times i cry for it

i mean whn the time i knew my mum dun let me have a dog

i thk b4 to have a dog from the street

but

hw i can get from their?

i will just get bite from them b4 i touch them

haha

many ppl askin me

will i regret whn i have them?

will i give up them

if i start dun like them?

huh~

i promise i wont

without promise

i aso wont

actually i just nid them whn the time im lonely

need them whn the time i wan to talk with sum1 bt i cant tell

need them whn im walking in the street alone

wondering whn i have a dog

collecting money..

=)

yesterday went to carefour

n i went to the pet shop alone

n mum n sis whn to supermarket

i saw the golden retriever

he had 1 years old

and no one buy it

it dint bark

i rmb last this year happy new year

i went to carefour aso

n i saw a golden retriever aso

n i rmb

the golden..

is this golden

i rmb the writing of the information

i rmb its birthday month

october of 2009

n tat time i saw it was rm2400++

but not is oni rm400

i was thinking

if i have money

i will buy it

although it had 1 years old

but i willing to

so now

my wishes only have 2

1st is learning karate or judo or others

2nd is

having a dog with me

but i thk i will buy a dog 1st bah

=)

finding a job..

pray for me bah~