it's suck

im happy tat no body wanna to read my dearest blog...than i can write everything tat i want...no nid anybody...
yesterday i cry...i cry lik hell bcuz of sum annoying thing..
Band
is bcuz of band...the member...the senior...the junior..including me...becus of this..i cried... sumbody tel me...they hate me...they say im so shit...wanna slap me..they hate me...say i nt respect senior or wateva...say i demerit 35 mark..say im bad...
i didnt respect senior?alwayz lawan they all?wanna b the head in band?wan a jawatan?
plz...stop it...say i didnt respect senior...u wan i respect until how?!!!wan i everytime saw they...wa lik saw dou a king or queen...'good morning king'...'we wil respect u'..'u r our god'...u wan us respect u until lik tat isit???lawan u al?no!tatz just my idea!!everytime...we keep queit wan to listen to u all...than wan us to giv idea...giv idea...than say i over highper...stay queit...say i sombong...i do wat to u all now?!im nt perfect la wei...lawan tat meanz is not respect?i just say the true!
yaya...i realy hope to touch the maice...but i didnt think wan to do!i just hope...i know beh is vr good..im impossible...although no beh...i also wont think about tat!i just hope i can be good...better n better...hope i can b the best! al cal us wan to be the best tat i can..i just try to be the best..than u al say i show off..ok lo...i everytime practice..of snare...stand at the corner there...i do lik tat..u al say i stil show off??!i didnt think i can same v my sis aso...i didnt thk wan to be the leader aso!y u al wan to say me lik tat?!!!!
ya...sum thime practice i gt say my fren wat they do wrong...but i didnt scold orh!i ust say out their mistake...the aso accept wad...we teach each other cant me?although they are form 3...i know...but i also gt treat they al lik my senior also!they say wad i do wat...i just say their mistake...if not saw they al wrong then i stil keep queit mae?u wan i respct until how?i form 2...they form 3...just 1year...although is teacher i also wont respect u lik a king also!u al say 1 band 1 sound...we r a family..i try to treat u as a fren...as a fren of my senior...but u al.....ish!y must keep a distance from u and me?!
u r same v me...also is a student...y must we do lik tat?
i didnt meanz dunwan to respect senior...but u wan us respect until how? plz tel me!
demerit ?yaya...i alwayz lawan teacher..so i get demerit...wei...now no disi alr la...although gt...disi is for ofenz slip...nt demerit..demerit is for the class...band is band..clas is clas....at band..i keep disiplin...cuz of band...if not...i wont do tat!!!clas..im a realy bad girll...cuz of band..i try to be good...
y u al dint c us wat we do for band..y u al oni c wat we do wrong for band??!!

im started to hate band...cuz i over love band...so i started to hate band...
i realy wanna tel samantha tat i wan to quit...now i started feel stress!cuz of senior!
it is the suck thing of my life...

wat a bad week...

tis week damn hot...human~plz la...dun kill our earth la....vr hot arh!
n duno y....gt 1 day night...no electric...is damn hot d lo...morning i bath with cold water....so shuang....but after i cum out from the toilet...IM SWEATING ALREADY!
sumore...
gt 1 day....no water...wat the hell of this type of condo....lift aso always rosak...wat aso bad la...ish!sumore the wheather is so hot!i wanna bath lae...really feel wan to kill ppl la...sumore until saturday 10.00am only gt water...so dumn la!
band...
im practicing the song...the song is nt easy....tat time rehersal...my leng is so pain bcuz of the high heel shoes...so i sit down n ply lo..i open my leng big big lik plying viola....n put my score on the snare drum...ply ply ply...sumore the 2 further is so annoying..real wan to punch her...i practice they aso cum n kacao...feel vr moody...suddenly ....wing blow....fiu~~~score fly...i faster stand up...wan to catch the score..score ~dun fly arg!bom bom!snare drum drop...im so shock...they both r luking at me...they just straight away they..LATER TEL HUISAN ARH!PUNISH ARH!
go die la...i get punishment u al vr happy izit?i wil tel huisan! no nid u tel i aso no!
band...
gt 1 day...suddenly wengyien scold us...Y MONDAY U ALL CAN LEAVE SBPT BOOK N A BOOK AT HERE?!SUMORE GT 4 STICK!Y U AL ALWAYZ LIK TAT WAN?SUMORE TAT DAY NOBODY KEEP INSTRUMENT...U RUSH?WE ALL ASO RUSH!ISH!Y PERCUSSION ALWAYZ LIKE TAT 1?!!!she is so angry...and tat day...im the 1 tat who leave the book(nt sbpt), stick n i dint keep instrument tat day...
so punish...amanda n samantha r telling wat we do wrong...dania cry...i duno y...i aso cry!i cant stop my tear...its keep on cum put from my eyes...u know y?cuz i make percusiion get punishment!amanda wan to talk to me
WAT HAPPEN TO U..
NO...NOTHING...
JUST TEL...Y?
(I SHAKE MY HEAD N USE MY TOWEL TO COVER HALF OF MY FACE)
Y?U VR SCARE PUNISHMENT IZIT
( SHAKE MY HEAD AGAIN)
THAN?
CUZ PERCUSIION GET PUNISHMENT IS BCUZ OF ME!
?
THE BOOK IS I LEAVE THERE D...THE STICK ASO...N MONDAY I ASO DINT KEEP INSTRUMENT....AL THE THING IS I DO WRONG!
CANOT SAY AL IS UR FAULT LA...PERCUSTION ASO .......(I DUNWAN TO TEL...)
I NOT REALY WAN TO DO LIKE TAT 1...TAT DAY IM TOO RUSH...SUMORE TAT THE WHOLE FORM 3 DIDNT CUM CUZ EXAM...JUST GT HUISAN, SARAH N ME...TAT DAY THEY CAL US TO PLY CELEBRATION...CUZ ONLY HAVE 30 SECOND TO GO IN....SO I FORGET ALR...HUISAN N SARAH ASO CUM IN..THEY AL ASO FORGET ALR...SO I LEAVE THERE...THE OTHERS 1 I DUNO...AND MONDAY 4.10 DISMISS...N MY VIOLIN CLASS IS START AT 4.15...SO I DIDNT KEEP INTRUMENT...
bla bla bla...
n many ppl is going to quit band...haiz...just say lazy for the reason..no nid say too much....

wat a bad luck

sky of love...

this few days...my frenz tel me a movie -SKY OF LOVE vr nice...cal me go watch...so i go bck dowload n watch lo..today morning...i haven wake up yet...i had a sweet dream..but i forget alr...i just rmb tat is a sweet dream only...wanna end edi wan...ut i suddenly hear sum annoying voice...is my mum n my sis fight...sis wanna go midvalley to celebrate her fren bday...then my mum dun let...than fight lo...sis gt tel me b4...im alr tel her is impossible..but she tel me she must go...i duno la...haiz...stop la...if wanna fight...close the door la...yor...haiz...i aso duno wan support who...both aso gt wrong la...i duno la..haiz....fastter slp back..continue my dream...but it didnt continue alr...yer....
wake up...i take clothes n go wash...before i wash...i go cook sum maggie mee n eat..cuz tat i 12pm wake up...from yesterday 2pm until now...alr over 12 o'clock alr didnt eat...sure vr hungry...cook n eat...sis watching BREAD LOVE...i watch alr...after i wash my clothes...i cal her stop 4 awhile...i cal her go watch the SKY OF LOVE..i tel her my fren say it vr touch n nice..so watch lo..
ya...realy vr nice...im going to cry out...but i didnt...but i thk my sis gt cry...i can hear it..hahahaha....swt...just wan to introduce to my fren...it is a vr nice movie...go watch bah...^^

让我爱你 Let Me Love You

为了你 就是你

所有等待都有理由

不管要多久

为了你 就是你

最爱一直在延后就等你

来把我接收

Because of you

yes

is you

whenever how long i waited for you

just got one reason

because of you

yes

is you

my heart always stand behind you

waited for you to love me

有时

我需要你的拥抱

我不是你想像中的勇敢

我不是你想象中的开朗

我不敢说

因为我怕你对我的感情

只是朋友

Sometimes

i hope to had your hug

i'm not like in your imagination

so dare

so optimistic

i'm not dare to say

cause i scare

you just treat me like a friend

你从不知道

我想做的不只是朋友

还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵

你从不知道

我想做的不只是朋友

还想有那么一点点自私的占有

you didn't know

i'm not wanna be your friend only

i hope to get some tender from you

you didn't know

i'm not wanna be your friend only

i hope you can be mine only

我不想一个人就好

一个人吃饭

旅行　

到处走走停停

我不要这种生活

我受够了

我希望我的身旁会有你

i don't want to stay alone

alone had lunch

walk here walk there

stop here stop there

think this think that

i don't want this type of life

please stop it

i hope

beside me can have you

为什么

越相信谁能依靠

越换来

又一次灵魂寂寥

有没有永远

再不会让心绝望

的解药

如果说

越踏出世界一脚

越不能

保留住天真微笑

那从今以后

我一个人就好

tell me why

believe a person who i think can depend on

always will get an alone life

did the world have a medicine

can let me won't feel despair anymore

if say

step out the world one step

can't keep a smile from my face

from now on

i'll keep stay alone

但

我不要

but

i don't want

让我爱你

please

let me love you

A Ss day~ XD

let's come and see my ss photo....

a ss day~

we r sister~

if wanna c more.......

just go my friendster...

x.c@fs.com

lose jor...T.T

reali cham...

today...competition...vr excited....yesterday cant fal in slp...1st time feel so scare to join a drawing competition...last time aso dint so scare....haiz....i thk is long time dint competition alr...scare lose gua...sumore is wakil sekolah lae...sure scare lah...reach scol...omg..vr tired arh...T.T wanna slp...i dint talk to artisha...i vr gan zhong..straight away go class...pooi ling go whr alr...i duno wat to do lae...vr scare arh!!i go class...i chat v allene they all...vr happy...relax abit...suddenly pooi ling cum my class cal me go wait at sumwhere...

skip to the main part...reach alr...the class is so queit...vr little ppl..vr scare...i sit down n talk out al the tools...start...i fast fast draw...at the last 30 minutes...i tot i alr done...draw the black line...i vr scare the tema will write wrong...wah....dint hv...lucky...huh??!!wat the...stil leave 15 minutes oni...i leave 1 N lae!!shit!!i fast fats draw lo...correct it...so the colour look abit dirty....the tema oni...

times up...they cal us pass up...i stop my brush...god bless me...i cal the teacher dun keep 1st...haven dry yet...they put my paper at the front there...lucky...shit...they put a empty paper on my paper...yer!!put for wat la!!vr scare they wil spoil my drawing lae...

haiz...just wait for the result...sms elaine...duno y...evry msg tat elaine send to me...i vr feel touch...izit i fal in love to her?wont bah...dun thk to much lae...she is my kai gor lae...wake up wake up!!wateva...thx arh...gor...

result cum out..ya...sure..sure...i dint get anything....sad...

next year bah...gambateh...

i'm tired.....

yesterday...when duno wat period la...suddenly gt 2 girls cum n find me..say duno wat teacher wanna find me...im so damn shock...vr scare..in the way...im thinking...izit i gt do any thing wrong?y suddenly teacher find me?vr scare u knw....they bring me go bilik seni...i go in...saw 1 teacher...
teacher: amelia kan?
me: ya
teacher: kamu punya MASYARAKAT MADANI TANPA DADAH ( a poster ) dah menang pertama...
me: har??!

teacher haven say finish i straight away say har...i aso duno lo...the word sendiri cum out from my mouth d lo...damn fish lae..

teacher: yaya.....oleh itu...kamu akan jadi wakil sekolah pergi ke sekolah lain pertanding la...
bla bla bla..

wakil sekolah...pertama....pertandingan....OMG!!

im damn shock man!than go out la...than lik tat lo...n teacher cal me go find her when the period free...wakakaka...im sure go when sejarah la....pn parimala....kakakaka...bye bye...

lik tat lo...teacher say my drawing is too cartoon....my colour is vr sharp....but stil gt empty space...wan me add more thing...haiz...so i today go back draw...2mr bring to scol let teacher giv sum comments lo...so the whole day i vr bz...i dint talk to artisha, temi, crystal they aso dint hav...cuz when class...im doing our band percussion essemble for the speech day...nt they all cal me do..is wanna do...cuz i love band...although im vr dissapoited to join percussion i stil wan to do tat...actually im going to chg section...i vr hope to ply sexaphone...from the time i join band...i alr wanna ply tat...ut i gt asma...o tat time i join percussion...
but now...i feel im strong...nt lik last time so teruk alr...i run 10 minute also dint feel tired...i really hope to chg...but...percussion lae...im the oni 1 form 2 in percussion...sarah dun k her la...she alwayz go wat meeting...she is same lik dint join band aso...so...wat can i do...just work hard...
i do until half...cuz i just knw at tis monday...so i gt 2 days to do...gt many intrument...over ten...im vr tired...but i can give up...i gt thk to giv up aso...but i dunwan...
until wednesday...i bring the score go band...i haven finish yet...i let tania c...she say vr gud...haiz...i duno la...cuz hadaina do hers alr...so she tel me...my assemble next time oni use...actually i aso duno my feeling is wat...can say is hapi...but aso can can say is sad...
1st...i work so hard for the score...i dint listen to teacher...dint do anything at scol...just create the assemble...but now they say dunwan use mine...2nd...tis week im alr so bz....wanna ready for the competition...n the score...they say dunwan use my score....than i can write slowly lo...no nid so fast edi lo...can rest alr lo...
tat day...our percussion disiplin is damn bad...vr dissapointed ....at night ....im colouring my drawing...vr tired...suddenly jaice cal me..she tel me tat she vr sad...she say she vr breakdown...she say the 1st day she become the percussion disiplin...than the percussion al is lik...haiz....al is nt alert...when jaice whe scold sum body tat do sum wrong thing lik dint ans yes...they al lik ....i feel they al is hate jaice...ya..kesian her...but wat to do?cuz the percussion member atitue is realy realy bad...no 1 is suitable to do aso...
well...we chat sumthing lik 1 hour 30 minutes sumthing...than cut alr...im drawing my poster...i draw until 12 sumthing....im so tired...i wanna slp...i really vr sad...tat competition oni have 3 hours 30 minutes to draw..i vr scare i nt enough time to draw finish...i scrae i lose...im alr many years dint join competition...i realy very scare...
2mr...i bring my poster go scol...recess...i dint recess v artisha they all aso..cuz i wanna find the teacher...i wanna her comments....she tel me tat my draw is vr normal..my colour is nice...but tis type of drawing is many ppl knw to draw...so she cal me add sum design of the traditional clothes...add more ppl...but she say my poster is alr vr gd...but if wanna win champion...must add more thing...i say than go out alr...2day...i dint do my score...cause i wanna rest...i wanna relax...i talk n ply to allene n crystal...i feel..i vr hapi...^^
im so hapi...piano read finish my novel alr...sh pass to me...n than gt so many ppl wanna borrow my novel...thx for u all support...i will work hard to write my novel...thx^^
at band...meeting...they all cry...haiz...i aso feel wanna cry...my nose feel sour...but i tahan...strong..is my style...they all suddenly say wanna use my assemble...cuz yesterday weng yian sms us...say our assemble is vr....hehee...bad...so they say wanna try to use my 1...but i leave my file at class....today is test...T.T i forget sj 4 la!!!rolling fail....
reach home...i bath...sit at the sofa there...ter-slp....at my dream...my mind is al about drum beat...drawing...poster...test...time...all is around my mind...nt a gud dream...than i wake up n go my room...i thk slp on the bed will feel better bah...
no....i realy feel wanna die...
drum beat.....drum beat.....drum beat.....
competition...competition...competition...
nt enough time...time...time...time...time...
i punch my head myself...i really vr slpy..vr tired...but i cant fall in slp!sumore...my mum n my sis is making noise out side....
ga zat arh gazat arh...yor! so scare for wat la......................
i wake up....watch tv.....but duno they al talk abt wat...haiz...jaice call me...than we chat lo..she mum cum back alr...so cut alr lo...i watch the show...vr bakchi d show la...haha..vr funny lae..XD
i feel more better...but im stil tired...izit tis cal stress?
hope next week can better...im tired now..

Robert Thomas-Pattinson....my husband~

XD
yesterday, go jusco...go popular for buy pens n something la...on the way to popular...me n my sis saw pang n her friends...aiyaya~pang where shorts lae...shorter than my short lae....haha...she look like so shock when saw dou us...haha...wateva~
go to the topic tat important..when going into the popular..i saw TWILGHT, NEW MOON, ECLIPSE !!in chinese d!!omg...but...i dint buy it...i wan english d...cause english more intreting wad...n aso can read it when reading time...can slow slow read..if is chinese...i thk 1 week im alr read inish alr...i walk here walk there...hope can saw dou got twilight la...i wan buy the whole set!walk here walk there...dint hav lae...e??!! suddenly saw a book...i gt saw it at a poster b4!

STAR OF TWILIGHT——ROBERT PATTINSON——TRUE LOVE NEVER DIES

wakakakaka...gt free poster lae!!im going to pengsan edi...duno wanna write wat...tat is the last book lae...i thk gt many fanz of robert buy edi...im the last person take tat book...omg~~

thank god...

aku cinta pada ROBERT THOMAS-PATTINSON