recall-ING

hmm..

seem lik tis year is goin to over

realize time go so fast now

n during tis year i felt

i hate tis year

its consider a year that always make me cry

but now

i think bck

i wont feel it any more

cuz the hurt make me grow

hmm...

recall..........

JANUARY

its was my birthday month

n i dun rmb whn it start

i couple with yvone

which is my ex

again

ya rite

she is a girl

a good singer

she love me

but i dont

but i just feel like wanna use her to forget about him

that guy name is dominic

i think some of u knw abt him

tat time i was still imature

cause i have been loving him since i was form 2

n he was lik a little child

who is just alive in games world

i started to feel lonely

and redo wat i did whn i was form 1

trying to couple

to make myself wont feel lonely

n i get together with her with no any feeling

i was trying to love her

but i cant

once i went tuition n i saw dominic

n i will just chg bck to the normal

sry ya

i plyed u

n thx for ur birthday present

which cost rm100

a big teddy bear

i lik it

but mum dun let me to hug it whn i slp cuz of my sensitive nose

sry tat i hurt u

as long u r ok now

=)

FEBRUARY

is going to CNY~

=)

i went bck to kampung during night time

which was a best time to back kampung

cause is nice to slp

hehe

but thn

this month i was being so freaking dark

bcuz of my beloved band

sports day is cuming soon

almost evryday stand under the sun n march

freaking tired

n i was carry the heaviest drum

QUAD

which is with 4 drums together

n i nid to ply it fast lik a octopus

ahaha

but i just enjoy it

but nt enjoy under the sun

n i get choosen for being a percussion leader

which is evryone cn expected

but i dun hope to be tat

wat i wan is just be my sis jawatan

who is a drum major

but thn

sumone is much more suitable to be tat

but im just jlus tat my sis cm play tat

n she dun really lik tat jawatan

n CNY

which is aso valentine's day

as usual

it passed with my single life

n 1st time my mum bough beer for CNY

like it

MARCH

hmm..

nth vr special

just is sports day...

almost evryday practice

is much more darker thn feb

n i compare to temi

who is my indian best friend

n im darker thn her..

n

in the whole band

i was the darkest..

even gt 1 indian girl aso

haiz

should i proud of it or wad lae?

cuz sum ppl wan dark aso cnt..

T.T

n i join lempar cakera

n lontar peluru,,

n i get lempar cakera 4th place

gt abit dissapointed

but thn at least i add some marks for my house

n congraz tat our house get 1st place

APRIL

hmm..

tis month i cried badly

cuz i lose merentas desa

which i target for so long

train myself for so long

reason is bcuz chg place...

i cn run long..

but nt fast

once i knw tat i lose it

i used towel to cover half or my face..

n i went to the place tat we gather..

n i sit on floor

n i really cry badly

whn back to scol

stil continue

dint eat at all

hmm..

2011's merentas desa

im coming for u

MAY

i started to feel wanna gv up to my percussionist

they seriously make me dissapointed

n concert is near

they attitue n attandence really make me feel duno wat can i do

started to feel guilty to all my senior

to sir

to the band

wat can i do now?

JUNE

is music month

kip promoting for band concert

as a publicity

kip go promote abt band concert during class

in the end

tat was a vr succesfull concert

which wont let those who dun really knw abt music 1 feel slpy

n in full seated!

thx for samantha

thx for wei qing

n thx for sir

n exspecially to band members

n aso ex senior's support

without u all

we cnt get this

we wont hv our 1st concert

^^

JULY

tis month actualy is just a normal month ya

but thn

i start couple with alex on tis month

cuz sumbody did sumthing

she spoiled evrything

including frenship in btw me n dominic

n this realtionship start with a game

bt thn

i just started to fall on her

but thn

evrytime i meet dominic

i still feel the same

trying my best to love alex more

n i rmb out annivesarry is on 21st of July

which is my 1st love

she from penang

she is a chef

she smoke

n she is artisha's ex

evryday talk with her through hp

with alex's subline

which actually belongs to artisha

AUGUST



we was sweet

we still the same

talk during midnight

acting like im studying

but 60% im talking to her

=P

but

she treat me getting colder n colder

we faught

n artisha appear

n some problem start

im envy

our friendship is goin to break

im still believing her tat time

n next month

she is coming to KL

SEPTEMBER

whn she cuming

she dun really goin to meet me

n she dun feel lik wanna meet me too

i felt

it was the time to end up tis relationship

i sms-ed

n u dint even ask why

ya rite

dun feel lik you loved me b4

it just a game

but

its nt a game for me

sry if i disturbed u

n thx for giving me a place

which is ur no.20 gf

n u came my 1st love

i lost my 1st love

i closed myself in my room

which is the room tat i alw talking to u

i dint cried

cuz my tears had dry

i listen to song

i plan to gv her a mashimaro doll

n i cnt gv it to her

since she dun even wan to meet me

i pass tat masshimaro to alicia to ask her to kip it 1st

since i dun feel lik wan to luk at it anymore

i plyed piano

i plyed a song which i practice for her bday for her bday

i rmb last time i ply is with joyfull

but i cnt feel the joy anymore

i feel nth

OCTOBER

pmr was soon

n i was trying nt to think abt it

ya

i did

i empty my mind for this month

but i fall in love with sudoku

so

i dint really study abt pmr

thk for JALA be with me

without u al

really hard to forget abt it

thz for rampas my sudoku whn i really fully addicted

so tat i at least study for sum subject

n pn chang!

*my geo teacher

thx for scolded me

thx for forcing me

so tat i cn

from tryer get E

n pmr i get B

ahaha

NOVEMBER

holidays was coming soon

n the last day of scol

is the day for band fairwell..

the whole november passed with my JALA

n starting to bcum MUI YAN again

went for interview

but

unsuccesfully

i dint get anything

tis month

i met u

n i fall on u

DECEMBER

full month with frens

sry to mum tat i leave u alone

bt

although i leave myself at home

u will leave me alone aso

i love u all

OLD FRIENDS GROUP

JALA

u all colored my holidays

tis was the best holidays i ever passed b4

its hurts

but

it shines too

whitout hurt

i wont be grow

i wont get experience

so

hope tat the net year will be a better year

with days with u all

*THIS YEAR, YOU ALL SAVE ME FROM TEARS