Lonely night

haiz
now i only know the feeling
like how a novelist say
"once you get the happiness until the top,
that is the starting to get a night mare"
haha
i though im strong
i can live without any one
but now
im feeling the feeling of alone after im in a relationship
i get alex
n evrynight we talk on phone
and this night
she just said that
she drunk already
and called me later
i knw that she wont call me back gae
drunk already how to call back wor
but im just keep on waiting
i was angry
but
i think it properly
if i control her too much
always dont let her do wateva i dont like
she wont be happy
i also wont
so i just smile
and ask her to sleep bah
of cause im worry about what will she do at another side of the world
but i choose to believe her
cut i just let it be bah
haha
learn to be mature
and get more experience than last time
i hate the feeling when suddenly
become so cold and empty
nvm la...
just hope she can sleep well this night
of cause
i hope she can call me
at least say good night
but
i also hope she can happy at there
sometimes just feel i cant do that thing to her
i cant be around her
hug her when she feel cold and scare
massage her when she feel tired
everytime just listen to her sound
maybe she said she statisfied
but i dont think so bah
haha
i knw u nid something more gae
now actually im tired
but
i still wish
she can call me
haiz
suan la..
chg back sim card 1st
ltr mum saw thn cham...
now im still want myself to be stronger
more experience is just make me feel
im weak
i wanted to be stronger
hopefully that nobody can stop me
example my mum
after pmr go find work again
maybe perfection bah
under air con
but i also want something that challenging gae
duno la..
erm
recently~
now adays after band concert
members all relax alr..
haha
including me bah
not so stress
during practice aso more happy n enjoy alr..
evry1 is having smile on their face
actually i suppose to punish them after band concert
but evrytime
the one i suppose to scold is not there
so suan le bah
but now c them so happy jor
aso duno wan them to sad or not
n i created new drum beat nia~~
original is from NOBODY this song d
n i named it as Algebraic Beat
but we cal Alge-beat
cuz it very hard to pronounce
n stil gt wat lae..
this few days very got the mood to study n do hmw
i just do my hmw
which i havent finish
since april 1
until july
i finished with copying my frenz buk
haha
at least i gt do mah...XD
tuition arh
with dominic's fren colser jor
haha
but not with not with dominic
he dint even talk to me bah
haha
now whn c him not so shy jor
but stil gt the feeling of shy shy la
long time dint frem abt him this few weeks..
n dint miss him during day time jor
i think alex going to cover him jor bah
should say is a gud news or bad news lae??
my fren all support D more than A nia
but
choosing a person who can alw sayang you
better than just being shy and love a person silently and alonely rite..
n now i only know
want to couple with no fighting also quite hard d nia..
not saying i gt fight with alex la..
just
not wat i imagine only la...
=)
quite long alr
should i stop?
k
stop la
write this with half hour
hopefully i gt appear in her dream
nitez..
muakz

nice song*Did I Ever Tell You -Nick Lachey

Did I ever tell you I’m better to have known you?

I don’t want to leave you with the shadow of a doubt

Did I ever give you the strength you’ve given me?

And how can I begin to make each moment mean the most so you will see

I never loved you more than I do today

Sometimes life just seems to get in the way

It’s been too long

I want to sit down and write for you a perfect love song

I want to shout it out in a silent crowd

I want to move you in a million ways

I said to you everyday but did I ever tell you I love you that way

And did I ever tell you I’m better to have known you

I don’t want to change you cause I proud of who you are

And should you ever question the pain we are going through

What I need to mention is that life just isn’t living without you

You know that I want you more than anything

Sometimes I just forget to say what I mean

It’s been too long

I want to sit down and write for you a perfect love song

I want to shout it out in a silent crowd

I want to move you in a million ways

I said to you everyday but did I ever tell you I love you that way

I never loved you more than I do today

Sometimes its crazy life just gets in the way

It’s been too long

I want to sit down and write for you a perfect love song

I want to shout it out in a silent crowd

I want to move you in a million ways

I said to you everyday but did I ever tell you I love you that way

It’s been too long

I want to sit down and write for you a perfect love song

I want to shout it out in a silent crowd

I want to move you in a million ways

I said to you everyday but did I ever tell you I love you

Did I ever tell you I love you that way?

to my DeAr ANGELIA

my girl...

no

should say my boy bah

haha

i knw u r scare tat i will reapeat the mistake

wat artisha

or maybe others do to you

but i promise i wont

if really gt 1 day

i fall with others

i will just straight away tell u

i wont let u wear green hat

n im not tat kind of ppl

cuz i say ONE

that meanz is ONLY ONE

i wont force you to anything you don't like

and please don't keep on compare with

artisha's yk

i knw la

u feel she very gud

taking photo

ply violin

but so wat??!!

for now

u are more better than her

cuz u knw judo and karate

ur atitue n the things u like is almost same with me

for her

she is gud

but for me

u r best

trying my best to like you more

and love you more

my spec can be the saksi alr

haha

to my Alex @ Angelia Tai Ann Chyi~♥

from your Amelia Khor Chee Kei...

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

w705 bye bye~~~T.T

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wat the
my pink color hp kena rompak jor!!!
at outside of perfection nia~~~
n inside gt many important thingsss!!!
like my ss pic la..
music la....
n contact number arh~~
T.T
n the feeling whn the f*cking man take my hp
is still vr clear in my mind...
is really scary lae..
n the 1st i think whn i kena
is thinking of alex lae..
~~
i scare ltr she call me
n i dint pick up phone...
n tat i dint knw the number can chg d..
so i scare ltr will gt sumthing bad happen!
T.T
n can say this is the 1st time i feel i so weak
n is really make me scare..
the feeling of heart beat bumping so fast
n i was struggling that time
dominic n salad is standing bhind me
but they duno i kena
after i tell them they oni knw
wuuuuuu~~
whn the time i scare
i really need alex's hug~~
i really very miss her yesterday~
really want her to be with me..
but~~
T.T
but any way
i will wait for u d...^^

suan liao la
bye le thn bye le
so...after pmr
taekwondo!
karate!
judo!
wait for me!
im coming!!!!!

miss angelia tai ann chyi

in a relationship

ya rite
im stil love dominic
but now
maybe not love anymore
is just like only
cuz i'm couple with Alex~
^^
k
she is my frenz x
n alex maybe stil like artisha
n i aso still like dominic
but wateva
cuz we r trying to forget them
im mean give up la
i really duno she gt like me boh now~
but at least we gt sms n call evryday
she lives at penang
but
i feel she is just around me~
can consider
this is the 1st time
i couple with my heart
is not a game anymore
so artisha~
she is mine jor~
XP
cinta cinta~
bye dominic~
fren frenz
alex~~i want you now~

Bigger

why arh
the one say never give up
is the one give up 1st
=.=
i duno wat to say la

wat the heck??!!
my stupid sister go n link my blog
watthe heck??!
she duno i dunwan let ppl read d mae??!!
yak si la!
ishhhhhhhhhh

band concert over already lu
but really regret tat i dint ask him to
cum for band concert face to face
T.T
it mean
do evrything without saying:
"next time 1st la"
NO DRAG!
but!!
pesta ria i dunwan he cum becuz!!
bcuz he will be in a trouble!

"perjanjian dominic / perjanjian antara pesta ria - amelia

1.if dominic come for pesta ria, amelia khor will ask him to couple with me.
2.if he come, i will kiss him with force.
3.if i dint follow this perjanjian i must pay all the fees for my pesta ria group
.................."

und la..
i aso dunwan gae
knw is childish
but i just trying not to be 'mature' like samantha~~
XD
actually i aso dun think he will come la
but now i really scare he will come lae
die lo die lo
DOMINIC!!
DUN CUM DUN CUM!!
NO WAKE INTO ST MARY 1 STEP!!
YOU WILL BE IN A TROUBLE!!!

singing competition is tomorrow jor
n i dun think i can singing 2mr
1st is i stil sick
n asma-ing
vr hard to breath actually
haiz
izit the god is telling me
in my future
i impossible to be a singer or a star?
wateva la
go marry with him b his wife thn ok jor..XDXDXDXD

sick
i hate
im trying to be strong
but the cover is hard
doesn't mean inside is hard too..
but i hate to become the weak 1
n i wish to be the strongest 1
the most strength
but nt the most tall 1
but at least i can do something
that girls can't do 1..
i mean in the positive way la
like carry 2 tables all that la

percussionist arh
is the time to be strong jor
next year sport day !!!
we must be better than this year!!
senior!
drum solo sure very very very nice jor...
XD
n i will promise i will create drum beat every year
i hope percussion don't be the worst section any more!!
gambateh!
n thx to samantha nia~~^^

n pesta ria~~
i tot just 2 performance
n now lae~~
god
3 jor!!!
i duno how lae
i duno the concert izit from the starting to the end?
cuz im selling ice blended
n my group is just 3 ppl nia~~~
die la~~

feeling he ignoring me now lae
i duno lae
if he still treat me as a fren
but y he luks like hiding from me 1??
i duno iziit i think to much or not
but i aso hope is i thk to much
now evry night dream about him
sum gud sum bad
i aso duno la
n luk at his pic can make me smile alr
his reply is just a "?"
it can make happy the whole day
n maybe whole week
n just now melissa say dominic left his book at tuition
she 4get to to gv the counter!!
wakakakakakaka
but i duno i dare to gv him or not
wakakakaka
but vr excited lor!!!
wakakakakakakakakakakakakakakaka
duno la
the feeling to him increases
the feeling to others sure decreases already la!!
but i must aso study hard jor..
if not our distance too far thn not gud ler..
wakakakaka
XD

CINTA CINTA
BELAJAR BELAJAR
GELAK GELAK
LAWA LAWA
XD

NO!!

dont read my blog...plz

recently

dislike ppl say im the lucky one
they dint knw how much i work hard for it
although impulse always  easier than being insist
the thing everyday we meet always different
some can give me tears
some can give me smile
finally love the day flower in blossom
won't scare of flower faded
the road walked before
all will becom a rainbow

once upon a time

having 3 words

everyday tell you

although not creative

but meaning full

i created so much of poem

just want u can smile a second

once upon a time

having 3 words

every body like it

very shocked

but not everyone know the real meaning

i just knw

i want u to be happy

band concert had over

everything chg to normal

really hope can be the normal member

but i stil the leader

wish to be a trumpeter

but im stil the percusiionist

nowadays

life is like nothing new

just doing the same things

but just used to it

wat to do

i just love band

prefer follow

better thn complain

want to complain

think before u complain

imagine u be the person involved

learn to understand

not just learn to talk without brain

like a things

doesn't mean u want to have it

but

mum

nobody like ppl say their own dream

as a grass

study for student is the main

but i prefer the dream more the MAIN

maybe is the puppy love

but for now

i just want him to be with me forever

maybe the future not

but this is wat i want now

i just love him

I LOVE DOMINIC

walao A

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walao A
i dun who is this la
she really over alr lo
complain so much
thn u be the president la!
haiz
if u dun lik
thn quit band la
we dun nid this kind of ppl stay in band
n our band wont die without u!

felt

sry..
i dunwan ppl to read my blog..
i now i write at here u all aso wont knw
but at least i gt the feeling to tell

haiz
again stress lo..
but better thn last time
at least now i will trying to smile when i feel sum thng wrong with me
cuz i knw
smile can make 1 thing different
just sum times very dissapointed to percussionist
from the best section become the worst section
sum times feel like..
bcuz senior keep on
throw the..
if wan say in a better way...untalented ppl
in a bad way...useless ppl
to percussion
but maybe they actually can
but just they nid sum 1 to teach properly
but if they can attend pratice evry day thats ok
but they..
but but but..
excuse so much
amelia..
u r more useless..
thn them...
sry samantha...
sry senior..
sry percussionist
sry...
band
sry...sir
i thk u all had choose a wrong leader..
plz...
just let me go...
dominic..i really need you

"cry-yer"

i actually want to keep it deep inside my heart

to be a secret which no 1 will know abt it

but i really nid to shout out my feeling

blog is the best place to let me shout out

cause no body c

hopefully in the future

i will reread all the articles

and then i will smile

and felt that im better thn the time i was younger 

cry-yer

acrtually the normal word is cryer

BUT TAT IS ANOTHER MEANING

wat to do

i just like to create new word

but wat i want to say is

im not the person who likes to cry

i duno who can listen to my shout

i duno who want to listen wat i felt

today in clas...

i not feel like want to talk to any body

although priya

although louisa

although crystal

although xin rou

i also dun feel want to talk with them

ya rite

i gt talk with shalina n kajol

but i think tat just a talk

but i really wan a person who can really listen to me

who can really teach me how can i do

to correct the mistake

to dissolve the mad-ness

which hide deep inside my heart

the whole day i just sit at my own place

doing maths

talking

al that

i duno wat im thinking

i duno wat is the thing that make me feel annouying n stress

i just feel very stress full

feel very annouying with wat my life going on

during recess or any free time

i alw talk with artisha temisha...

sumtimes aso priya

im vr jlus that their life is so nice n

dun hav the stres..

the happiness..

the childish

im trying to think or be the childish 1

but

i duno why

i alws will be the different 1

example

when the time i feel want to be serious

they feel like it is just a game

when the time they so serious

i will just feel that

they are so childish

i duno why

i just feel i cant

i cant

mix with them

although is temi or artisha

i will just sit beside

and act like im listening

but actually im thinking sum others thing

but i duno wat am i thinking

another

band

i feel tat im not suitable to take any jawatan

im just suitable to be the normal 1

members feel lik im makeing funwith them

im trying to be vr strick

but they feel lik im just plying with them

and then in the end i will just smile to them

tatz all

and sum of them feel i hate her

she is trying to tell me that im hate her

but i dint

i duno why she will feel like that

i just feel upset n dissapoited to myself

i duno wat i do

i feel im not suitable to take tis job any more

ya rite

for them

im gud in plying fast n loud beat

but for me

say the truth

im not gud at all

n knw how to ply

doesnt mean that and teach the junior

i really dun hav the passion

sum member they alw absent

and whn the time they come

and i nid to re-teach again

if i say i dunwan you to involve in concert

i can 100% comfirm

they will they sumbody

sumbody tell the president

n then the whole band knw

and thn president cum n talk to me

fierce aso cant

soft also cant

i reli feel want to kill myself

and ply songs

other member also dint get scold

n im the 1

as the percusion leader

alw get scold

im not dun like wat sir scolded me

ya maybe i alws ply to loud

n no feeling

but i alr enjoy the songs!!

deep inside my heart is singing the too

n he told me that i dint luk at him

but i alw dint ply with following the score

but...

maybe

im not wat i think

im not the 1 which suitable to be the leader

i dint felt want to cry

i just feel dissapoited n upset

to wat i did

wat i play

can any 1 help me to solve the problem?

lastly

dominic

i will swear

i will wait for u

until the day u saw me

or until the day i chg my heart

DOMINIC CHEAH SZE JEN

I LOVE YOU