"cry-yer"

i actually want to keep it deep inside my heart

to be a secret which no 1 will know abt it

but i really nid to shout out my feeling

blog is the best place to let me shout out

cause no body c

hopefully in the future

i will reread all the articles

and then i will smile

and felt that im better thn the time i was younger 

cry-yer

acrtually the normal word is cryer

BUT TAT IS ANOTHER MEANING

wat to do

i just like to create new word

but wat i want to say is

im not the person who likes to cry

i duno who can listen to my shout

i duno who want to listen wat i felt

today in clas...

i not feel like want to talk to any body

although priya

although louisa

although crystal

although xin rou

i also dun feel want to talk with them

ya rite

i gt talk with shalina n kajol

but i think tat just a talk

but i really wan a person who can really listen to me

who can really teach me how can i do

to correct the mistake

to dissolve the mad-ness

which hide deep inside my heart

the whole day i just sit at my own place

doing maths

talking

al that

i duno wat im thinking

i duno wat is the thing that make me feel annouying n stress

i just feel very stress full

feel very annouying with wat my life going on

during recess or any free time

i alw talk with artisha temisha...

sumtimes aso priya

im vr jlus that their life is so nice n

dun hav the stres..

the happiness..

the childish

im trying to think or be the childish 1

but

i duno why

i alws will be the different 1

example

when the time i feel want to be serious

they feel like it is just a game

when the time they so serious

i will just feel that

they are so childish

i duno why

i just feel i cant

i cant

mix with them

although is temi or artisha

i will just sit beside

and act like im listening

but actually im thinking sum others thing

but i duno wat am i thinking

another

band

i feel tat im not suitable to take any jawatan

im just suitable to be the normal 1

members feel lik im makeing funwith them

im trying to be vr strick

but they feel lik im just plying with them

and then in the end i will just smile to them

tatz all

and sum of them feel i hate her

she is trying to tell me that im hate her

but i dint

i duno why she will feel like that

i just feel upset n dissapoited to myself

i duno wat i do

i feel im not suitable to take tis job any more

ya rite

for them

im gud in plying fast n loud beat

but for me

say the truth

im not gud at all

n knw how to ply

doesnt mean that and teach the junior

i really dun hav the passion

sum member they alw absent

and whn the time they come

and i nid to re-teach again

if i say i dunwan you to involve in concert

i can 100% comfirm

they will they sumbody

sumbody tell the president

n then the whole band knw

and thn president cum n talk to me

fierce aso cant

soft also cant

i reli feel want to kill myself

and ply songs

other member also dint get scold

n im the 1

as the percusion leader

alw get scold

im not dun like wat sir scolded me

ya maybe i alws ply to loud

n no feeling

but i alr enjoy the songs!!

deep inside my heart is singing the too

n he told me that i dint luk at him

but i alw dint ply with following the score

but...

maybe

im not wat i think

im not the 1 which suitable to be the leader

i dint felt want to cry

i just feel dissapoited n upset

to wat i did

wat i play

can any 1 help me to solve the problem?

lastly

dominic

i will swear

i will wait for u

until the day u saw me

or until the day i chg my heart

DOMINIC CHEAH SZE JEN

I LOVE YOU