Lonely night

haiz
now i only know the feeling
like how a novelist say
"once you get the happiness until the top,
that is the starting to get a night mare"
haha
i though im strong
i can live without any one
but now
im feeling the feeling of alone after im in a relationship
i get alex
n evrynight we talk on phone
and this night
she just said that
she drunk already
and called me later
i knw that she wont call me back gae
drunk already how to call back wor
but im just keep on waiting
i was angry
but
i think it properly
if i control her too much
always dont let her do wateva i dont like
she wont be happy
i also wont
so i just smile
and ask her to sleep bah
of cause im worry about what will she do at another side of the world
but i choose to believe her
cut i just let it be bah
haha
learn to be mature
and get more experience than last time
i hate the feeling when suddenly
become so cold and empty
nvm la...
just hope she can sleep well this night
of cause
i hope she can call me
at least say good night
but
i also hope she can happy at there
sometimes just feel i cant do that thing to her
i cant be around her
hug her when she feel cold and scare
massage her when she feel tired
everytime just listen to her sound
maybe she said she statisfied
but i dont think so bah
haha
i knw u nid something more gae
now actually im tired
but
i still wish
she can call me
haiz
suan la..
chg back sim card 1st
ltr mum saw thn cham...
now im still want myself to be stronger
more experience is just make me feel
im weak
i wanted to be stronger
hopefully that nobody can stop me
example my mum
after pmr go find work again
maybe perfection bah
under air con
but i also want something that challenging gae
duno la..
erm
recently~
now adays after band concert
members all relax alr..
haha
including me bah
not so stress
during practice aso more happy n enjoy alr..
evry1 is having smile on their face
actually i suppose to punish them after band concert
but evrytime
the one i suppose to scold is not there
so suan le bah
but now c them so happy jor
aso duno wan them to sad or not
n i created new drum beat nia~~
original is from NOBODY this song d
n i named it as Algebraic Beat
but we cal Alge-beat
cuz it very hard to pronounce
n stil gt wat lae..
this few days very got the mood to study n do hmw
i just do my hmw
which i havent finish
since april 1
until july
i finished with copying my frenz buk
haha
at least i gt do mah...XD
tuition arh
with dominic's fren colser jor
haha
but not with not with dominic
he dint even talk to me bah
haha
now whn c him not so shy jor
but stil gt the feeling of shy shy la
long time dint frem abt him this few weeks..
n dint miss him during day time jor
i think alex going to cover him jor bah
should say is a gud news or bad news lae??
my fren all support D more than A nia
but
choosing a person who can alw sayang you
better than just being shy and love a person silently and alonely rite..
n now i only know
want to couple with no fighting also quite hard d nia..
not saying i gt fight with alex la..
just
not wat i imagine only la...
=)
quite long alr
should i stop?
k
stop la
write this with half hour
hopefully i gt appear in her dream
nitez..
muakz

nice song*Did I Ever Tell You -Nick Lachey

Did I ever tell you I’m better to have known you?

I don’t want to leave you with the shadow of a doubt

Did I ever give you the strength you’ve given me?

And how can I begin to make each moment mean the most so you will see

I never loved you more than I do today

Sometimes life just seems to get in the way

It’s been too long

I want to sit down and write for you a perfect love song

I want to shout it out in a silent crowd

I want to move you in a million ways

I said to you everyday but did I ever tell you I love you that way

And did I ever tell you I’m better to have known you

I don’t want to change you cause I proud of who you are

And should you ever question the pain we are going through

What I need to mention is that life just isn’t living without you

You know that I want you more than anything

Sometimes I just forget to say what I mean

It’s been too long

I want to sit down and write for you a perfect love song

I want to shout it out in a silent crowd

I want to move you in a million ways

I said to you everyday but did I ever tell you I love you that way

I never loved you more than I do today

Sometimes its crazy life just gets in the way

It’s been too long

I want to sit down and write for you a perfect love song

I want to shout it out in a silent crowd

I want to move you in a million ways

I said to you everyday but did I ever tell you I love you that way

It’s been too long

I want to sit down and write for you a perfect love song

I want to shout it out in a silent crowd

I want to move you in a million ways

I said to you everyday but did I ever tell you I love you

Did I ever tell you I love you that way?