ajk

if im not mistaken
is this wednesday
samantha told us the ajk list..
n my sis had told me b4 my jawatan is vr normal..
evry body can guess aso
n artisha 1 is vr shock..
n i can guess i comfirm is percussionist leader d lo..
1st is bcuz dania wanted to quit alr..
2nd is dun hv other girl in percussion is form 3.
n artisha 1 ..
either is disiplin misstress or conductor lo..
n i aso can say i guess al correct alr
whn i knw i get the jawatan..
im not shock
im not suprise
im not so happy as wat i think
cuz
i not felt that is bcuz of my talent so they choosen me..
ya
i last time wanted this job aso..
but
just for sum times..
the real jawatan i wanted is drum major/band major...
i love mace*if im not mistaken..i thk is speel lik tat
i knw is impossible..
but i really wanted it..
but wat to do..
im not enough gud..
sumtimes gt abit jlus my sis n beh aso
n i sum times i realy wan to smack my sis
cuz she didnt did her job
i mean train her teknik to ply the mace..
n she even is weak thn mine
haiz..
evrytime aso lik tat..
sis dun like her job..
but i lik it..
human being is like tat d lo..
wat u can get is not gud..
wat u dun hav is gud..
concert is going nearer n nearer..
i will start train my percussionist vr seriously..
n i hope them can be more better thn me
stronger thn me
i will teach them the way i train myself..
but the problem is..
they feel 40 times pumping is too much
wat to do..
i at least aso want 50++ only will feel tired
hope they wont die la..
percussionist gambateh la..
god bless us