useless

seriosuly

i hate myself

i get nothing again

n those who normally will get place

they dint get too

i thk

this year challengers is too much

wateva

i just feel myself useless again

again n AGAIN

but

i knew i wont get

i cried silently after i run

i sit at the corner

dun feel lik crying

but tears just drop from my eyes

i was hungry

but dun feel like eating anything

sry my buddies

when the time i being silent

n without a smile on my face

actually im calming myself down

controling

i mean when the time at SM

dun wan to embarressing u all

n my image too

wahaha

just trying to be strong

n doing everything without any body's help

lost make me feel myself weak

n i just hate when the time i feel im weak

but i am weak

so forgive me to be target too high

or target something that is impossible

10.41pm

im slpy actually

but just feel like dunwan to slp

n im in the house alone

quiet

n so silent

love the time im being alone

but i just feel lik wan to hug somebody

cause sometimes im just tiring for being too protective

or should say

being a fake strong

wateva

just get used to it

cause i dont feel lik wan lean on others

nt bcuz of trustable or not

but just dunwan to be troublesome

wateva

anyway

i have a great badminton day

always

im nth gud at

but thn badminton can make me feel at least abit better

wateva

normal but useless

wahahaa

time to go on bed

i thk i will fall in slp very fast

n just hopefully i wont get a nightmare

dont worry

next year it wont be happen again

i dunwan to give up

but seems lik it wan me to give up

wateva

i dun care anymore

and i dunwan to care n think too

slp

peaceful life

be with me

always forever

n ever

wahahaa

night

*i think i'd fall

on you...