Coffee-ing

again lonely night

a very big chance to see her face by webcam

but she just sms me that

she wanna go drink with her friends after she work

n ask me nt to wait for her

really not understand what she thinking

everytimes

she bad mood

or she almost fight with me

the next day she will go drink

she said after she drink

she can forget everything

but

so what

while drinking you are forget abt it

after u wake up

the problem is still there

thn wat for wasting money n time?

im drinking coffee

hopefully she can online

but i knw she wont

but i just hope

but im tired

wanna slp

but im keep on drinking coffee

everybody is saying that coffee

can make ppl wont feel tired

but why i cant feel the different?

i think

thr is the same meaning

to say that

BEER

other ppl say it can make u feel better

everybody will drink it 

when the time u feel sad

cause evrybody do that

so

u do so

it can say is a traditional

but

now is a modern time

do everything with brain

 hide from the problem

for me

is the most childish way to solve it

no

it cant solve problem

but

i duno

cause maybe

after few years

i will do like that too

yes

i love beer too

but i drink for fun

when the time im happy

maybe i havent walk through

what the problem u having

but

at i will rmb forever

what i write n say now

cuz i dun wanna to be like that

i dont want to treat my partner like that

i dont know in the future

my partner wil still be you or not

but i dont want also

cause i hate the feeling when u treat me like that

nothing is best when it dint walk through the hurt

so i just try to used to it

no

should say

i alr used to it

coffee

why am i still feel so tired?

haha

duno i will get addicted to coffee or not

but i think

not bad aso ma

i dint had sugar or milk cream

wont be fat aso

like the original taste

its so quite

no music plying

just the typing keyboard sound

yesterday at least i can luk at u whn the time so quite

but now cant do anything

yesterday

when the time u ask me

not u love u so much

ask me not to treat u so good

i dint feel hurt

just

EMPTY

i duno wat r u thinking

n u ask me to wait for u 3 years more to clear u mind

i duno im miss understanding or wat

but u r just make me feel like

u r asking me to break up with u?

i dun knw

n i dunwan to think tat too

n u said u r bad mood

n u dunwan to tell why

alr said b4

face true to each other

i do it

n u r not doing it

n ur private blog

u say u dunwan to show me

cuz u scare me hurt

but u alr hurt me

i said i used to it alr

 but

u still dunwan

i duno

n i dunwan to force u

everytimes i start chging the way i speak

i mean im start angry

u will say

'want to quarrel izzit?'

hey

girl

can u tell me why

why u can angry but i cant?

n can u ask me to cool down at least?

everytimes im the 1 saying sorry

wat i do is just care too much abt u

u really make me dissapointed

u said

u can be the 100% husband

but i cant c it

n i dun wish to have any more

i just wan u to be with me

n at least u tell me evrything

but

u r just making me

getting more dissapointed

n more disspaointed

n i duno why

why must everytimes

whn she tell u sumthng

u must be so care abt it

a little things thn u feel angry n bad mood

ask u wat happen

dunwan to tell

reason?

scare me hurt

if u really scare that im hurt

thn plz just tell me everything

n do not leave me alone

whn i hope to c u

i drink last sip of coffee

its bitter thn just now

i thk is the coffee i put at thr too long time alr

n i start imagine

if tonight

u are webcam with me

i think

just now tat sip of coffee

will b sweet for me

although its bitter

neck pain seriously

really tired

but u havent appear

again dissapointed

haiz

again n again

nvm la

going to used to it alr

^^

lets smile bah

=)

like what i write down thr

night dear

muakz

i miss u